Tuesday, March 31, 2009

I'll be the bright side of your bad day, if you'll be mine





Yay! I am blogging something! Here are some random/rad/amazing photos from an awesome surprise party for Kendally last weekened...buaalahahahalala....and here is the sad oatmeal poem I was speaking of :)

"Oatmeal" by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It's hard not to think of you
as I stand at the stove stirring oatmeal
looking out over the lake.
The morning sun touches the water
rippled by the warm breeze.
My sons' voices drift to me,
earnest conversation as they do last night's
supper dishes at the picnic table
under the cedars.

Finally learned how to make your own oatmeal,
after countless mornings of waiting
for me to do it.
And I did.
Hard to understand why a man
who can make a multi-million dollar deal
can't read those four lines of instructions
on the oatmeal bag.

Sometimes
when the breeze blows hot
and I float
dozing on the air mattress
drifting across the bay
I catch the sound of your laughter
booming out across the water
mixed with the shouts and battle cries of the boys,
all of you in a deadly water fight.
And I raise my head to catch the sound...
and it's gone
like a ghost shimmering in the heat waves off the sand.

And the tightness in the centre of my body
aches like I have been kicked
and lost my breath
and may never get it back.
But there is nothing to be done
so I move my head
over the edge of the mattress
to float in the crystal, cold water.
My hair
a bronze mass of tendrils
drifts around me
and I let the hot tears
stream from the corners of my eyes
into the lake's icy depths
without a sound.

I want to make oatmeal one morning
and not ache in the centre of my body.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I would like to watch you sleeping



Alot of the time I feel like i have nothing left to say, sometimes it makes me feel selfish. I wish all my words could be quotes from songs, poems, or movies...and then maybe my brain wouldn't have it so hard. If I could quote any poem, I would quote this one:


I would like to watch you sleeping,
which may not happen.
I would like to watch you,
sleeping. I would like to sleep
with you, to enter
your sleep as its smooth dark wave
slides over my head

and walk with you through that lucent
wavering forest of bluegreen leaves
with its watery sun & three moons
towards the cave where you must descend,
towards your worst fear

I would like to give you the silver
branch, the small white flower, the one
word that will protect you
from the grief at the center
of your dream, from the grief
at the center I would like to follow
you up the long stairway
again & become
the boat that would row you back
carefully, a flame
in two cupped hands
to where your body lies
beside me, and as you enter
it as easily as breathing in

I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.

~ "Variation on the Word Sleep" by Margaret Atwood

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Just Like the Moon

Today I have learned....

That changing a toddler into his pjs while he is still sleeping is one of the cutest things I could possibly experience...

Yesterday I learned, that this certain persanoo (whom you all probably know who i am talking about) has the ability to give me butterflies that last all day....now i mean this persanoo always gives me butterflies...but this time it was ALL day.... It is an amazing thing it is to love and be loved...

On Thursday, me and Chloe were doing table topics (we went through like half the box, btw)....one of the questions was what is your favorite song lyric...I can't really choose...but... at the moment it is from this song by Brett Dennen "Just Like the Moon".... P.S. I italicized my favorite lyric part!

"I believe that you were born during an eclipse
and the stars named you moon child
Then you come you rise into my sky
you stepped in front of my sun
and it makes the whole world dark.

And you light up the night
just like the moon
just like the moon you light up the night
and sometimes,sometimes
I only get a sliver of ya
but I'm hoping
I'm hoping for a full moon tonight.

Laid back and I'm restless in the daytime
and I'm chased by these shadows
oh they're haunting me
then you come with nighttimes' wooly blanket
and you wrap me like a child
who's been in the rain too long.

Oh I've chased the moon
you know I've tried
and each time I triedeach time I failed
and each time I get so down on myself
and I can't stand this pace of a snail
while the rest of the world...
You know I, I know I know I know that I can
probably never be the same

and in the night
I can feel you love light shining bright
falling down on me like autumn leaves
and in the night
I can see you shining bright
tell me how am I supposed to fall asleep tonight"

<3

Thursday, February 12, 2009

When you give an abi a croissant....

Today, I learned...





That if I eat croissants (the Pillsbury ones)....I get very very weird....so only do it if you can accept me for my oddness afterwards (Thanks, Chloe, for being accepting!)....jeez, I love those croissants!!!!!





I also just remembered... I love that book "When You Give a Mouse a Cookie" : D





This photograph/artwork is on Etsy....i <3 it

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Today I learned...

For the sake of optimism, I have decided to post everyday about what I have learned from the day....i think it will make me happy..... 

So...
Today, I have learned....
that I will never in my future of poetry writing, write a poem about an onion....now I love Pablo Neruda, and he does beautifully write about an onion....but not saying I would :)

Onion,
luminous flask,
your beauty formed
petal by petal,
crystal scales expanded you
and in the secrecy of the dark earth
your belly grew round with dew.
Under the earth
the miracle
happened
and when your clumsy
green stem appeared,
and your leaves were born
like swords
in the garden,
the earth heaped up her power
showing your naked transparency,
and as the remote sea
in lifting the breasts of Aphrodite
duplicating the magnolia,
so did the earth
make you,
onion
clear as a planet
and destined
to shine,
constant constellation,
round rose of water,
upon
the table
of the poor.

You make us cry without hurting us.
I have praised everything that exists,
but to me, onion, you are
more beautiful than a bird
of dazzling feathers,
heavenly globe, platinum goblet,
unmoving dance
of the snowy anemone

and the fragrance of the earth lives
in your crystalline nature


~Pablo Neruda


<3



Friday, February 6, 2009

Thursday, February 5, 2009

MEOW



I have came here to say nothing.....

except that I have been a little obsessively thinking about someone lately.....Hmmmmrrmmmm

:)

And that I love our hippie cat